Turning Point

Loneliness is suddenly experienced for the first time in ages when you break away from that special person with whom you have shared years of your life. It is all about you and yourself facing even the most trivial situations. For example, you find yourself alone in the supermarket feeling out-of-place, isolated although surrounded by people . You do not have to buy anymore that sauce you never liked... then you arrive at home with some tinned food and an identity crisis. Not to mention everything else --you had adjusted all your world to him, his family and some shared friends. Everyone is gone now.

"Look at the TV! They've just scored another goal!". Oh, wait, there is no one near to talk to... It is strange to be alone. You knew this would eventually happen, you saw it coming, but it is impossible to be prepared for this. You were not prepared either the day you fell in love. It is better not think about those happy days. Resist the nostalgia, do not be fooled by sweet memories.

You cannot remember how you used to be before he entered in your life. It is not possible to become the same person you were in the past, so long ago. The only thing left to do is to reinvent yourself from zero. Little do you know how you will achieve that.

Step by step, you try to restore yourself. Some people need weeks, another need years. Anger, shame, frustration, coldness... they all come and go. Sooner or later, some cheerful thoughts appear in your mind. They have emerged unexpectedly... or not! Maybe you have brainwashed yourself to think positive, or someone else has injected enthusiasm into you. In any case, what is important is that you have finally found something that inspires hope in your life! Then you refuge in that one little thing as if your life depended on it --some new sport, new music, group of friends or beautiful place in the city.

You by yourself spend your freetime doing those things that only you enjoy. You by your own do a steadily number of things in the right way. You begin to appreciate your true value. You make the promise that you'll never lose this individuality, no matter what happens. You will never betray yourself again.

The end of this journey is close. There are so many things to remember for the future... how you truly are, what causes you pain, what are you willing to bear and what is not worthy of you. Now you can detect who will probably make you suffer so it is easier to run away from them. You have become stronger and wiser, even if you do not realise it yet. Everything ends when you learn to manage your feelings. That instant when you decide to take a risk because you finally feel confident is an ending but also a beginnning. After all, life will always offer you new experiences to fight for and be brave.